the big V-day

In a few hours valentine’s day will once again be celebrated by millions of people around the world who believe in love. I am one of them.

I do not actually know when, where and why valentine’s day started. I just grew up in a country where February 14 is celebrated with chocolates, flowers and dinner dates. Since pre-school, my teacher would always instruct us to make V-day cards for our loved ones. And eversince I would always make that special card for my mom. I do not know why. But apparently, many of my classmates and the kids in school (my younger brother and sister included) are making cards for their crushes and special someone. My sister would even use my name as her special secret name for her cards. I allowed it.

That is the time I realized I am not normal on V-days.

When I reached high school and college, I had boyfriends. Obviously all of them unsuccessful, including that one day. Currently, I am in a very serious relationship though we are miles apart. And even if my current status is very happy and in love, I cannot say that I already had a great and memorable V-day ever.

As far as I can remember, there was not even one time that I was surprised or shocked or amazed or magically in love on a V-day. Usually I am pissed off, mad, angry, not in the mood, in between a fight, just got in a new fight, having a bad day, raging hormones, etc. I do not know why. But it has been like that.

Tomorrow, I am not expecting much. I will be having dinner with my korean friends from the dorm. One girl has no bf and the other has her bf in the army. So might as well be together. Oh well.

I hope people will have a better V-day than me.

Happy heart’s day!